Near Death

I wish I could tell you 

Make you feel 

How I do not desire to live sometimes 

I wish I could tell you 

Make you feel

I want to take you away somewhere where nobody belongs 

I wish I could tell you 

Make you feel

Your taste on my lips 

Excites in me a sudden death drive

That's shameless abandon 

I wish I could tell you 

Make you feel

I always loved like that 

With my bones cracking 

With my heartbeats escaping to a faraway land 

With my small hands 

Telling you that look 

I have never held anything more beautiful and magical than you

I wish I could tell you 

Make you feel

I have counted the exact number of times

Trees tremble when my soul escapes my body 

I wish I could tell you 

Make you feel

When waves awash our feet

I think of widows and witches

Because they all start with the same letter 

I wish I could tell you 

Make you feel

How my heart breaks 

My eyes water

My fingers shake 

To hold you and nobody at the same time

I wish I could tell you 

Make you feel

There are some things I do not know about myself 

Tell me sweetheart, someday, if I ask,

Would you make me know, 

Would you shirk away from being my eyes?